Jersey Shore.

This Past Weekend Was An Adventure.

Friday 

The Journey Started. Me & The Five Loves Of My Life Went On A Trip To The Beach. Wildwood, NJ. We Drove During The Night & Didn't Sleep Until The Day. We All Got High Off Life, And Some Of Us Also Got High Off Earth. Wake & Bakes Accompanied By Naps Amongst Loud Noise. Fist Pumpin On The Boardwalk, & Dancing With White Boys. Ha. Of Course With Every Voyage Comes A Speed Bump. We Partied Way Too Hard & Get Kicked Out Our Hotel. Took Showers. Slept At The Beach, Woke Up & Ran Into Some Old Homies Who Let Us Take Showers Again In Their Room. Thank God For Nice People. 

Learned Things That I Already Learned About Certain People. I Love My Guy Friends, They're The Best. I Was Me, This Whole Weekend. And Some People Had To Run Back & Express That To People From My Past. That Can't Seem To Get Out Of My Present, Even Though They Know We Have No Future. The Thing Is, I Walked Around In My Bra & Underwear With A Red Cup & I Was Slightly Turnt For 6hrs Straight. It's Vacation. It's Summer. I'm Young. Let Me Live. Thanks. 

We All Reflected Through Drunken Conversations About Past Loves. Didn't Make It No Better That The Bait Just Wasn't In Wildwood. But Thats Cool. We Just Need Each Other:) 

Mansions On The Moon.

This Song Mellows My Soul & Makes My Heart Do Tumbles.

Enjoy.

Frustrations Of An Ex-Freshman

I Honestly Do Not Understand Why My Father Continues To Wake Me Up. I Have No Agenda. Can I Live My Life? If I Would Like To Sleep Until 12pm, Thats Fine. Sheeeesh. Coming Home From Being In College For A Whole Year, Blows Mine. Like, What Is This Telling Me I've Been In The Shower For 20 Minutes & Thats Too Long? Heeeello. Last Time I Checked Cleanliness Was A Good Thing. I'm Pretty Sure That If My Shower Was 5 Minutes You Would Always Call Me Dirty. I'm Just Saying. 

Although ... I Do Not Mind The Wonderful Home Cooked Meals That I Can Get Occasionally. Nor Do I Mind The Freedom To Walk To Another Room Without Having To Walk Down A Hallway With Slippers On. But .. Next Summer, Coming Home For More Than A Month Is A No Go. I'm Tryna Be In London Somewhere, Ridin A Tram. Or In Africa, Rockin Out With My Long Lost Fam. 

Bomb Exploded Then Down Into Ashes.

This Song ...Today It Made Me Cry.

Surprisingly, I Wasn't Expecting It.

But If You're Reading This, Then You Would Know Why.

<3

Dear Heart,

Dear Heart,

I Love You. Yes, I Can Love You From The Place That Love Comes From, And That Is You. See How Powerful You Are. Yet Lately, You've Been Slightly Weak. My Mind's Been Running The Show. Why Are You Hiding Out? Scared You'll Get Broken Again. Or Maybe Thats My Mind Tricking You. Sometimes, You Just Must Disregard. This Me. Speaking I Guess From You To You. These Past Few Days, You've Been So Heavy. Lighten Up. It'll Get Better I Promise. That Boy, He Doesn't Deserve Your Beautiful Glow. You Know Why? Because He Couldn't Even See Your Shine. Only The Chosen Ones Are Able To See Your Shine. You Light Up My Whole Being. All The Tragedies, They Come & Go. Thats Life. Beat Faster. I'm Tired Of Your Slow Pitter Patter. Love Will Come To You. In The Meantime, I'm Working On Mellowing Out My Mind So That You My Heart, ...Can Dance Again.

<3 Me

Dreams Of A Birdy

I Woke Up This Morning 
Of Course My Dreams Had Taken Me On A Long Ride Again
They've Been So Turbulent Lately
What Happen To My Dreams Of Tranquility?
Who Am I Kidding?
I Hardly Ever Dream Of Tranquility 
Only When I'm Awake
When I Close My Eyes Its A Whole Different Story.  

Lullaby

Coldplay - Fix You

When you try your best, but you don't succeed

When you get what you want, but not what you need

When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep

Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face

When you lose something you can't replace

When you love someone, but it goes to waste

Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

Can someone please fix me? 

Soul Ties.

Yvonne

Seana'

Shapel

Kristin

Clarke

These Right Here Are My Soul Ties. My Soul Ties In Tune With Theirs Because Our Energies Tap Into One Another's, Almost Making Us One. I Feel Their Spirits Moving Through Mine. I'm Lucky To Have More Than One Soul Tie. I Love Them 

....Except There's One Missing 

SexualBeing

Beings,

I Am A Sexual Being
It Is Freeing
Deeper Than You Know
Not Permiscuous
Not Hardly At All
No, Not Even Close
The Fact Is
The Act Is Beautiful
Only When Derived From Soul Ties
Do Not Frown Upon My Perception
My Energy Taps Into My Affection

..

Ever Breathe And Still Feel Slightly Suffocated?
Yeah, Thats How I Feel

No Regrets

Where Should I Begin?
Perhaps People Are Put In Your Life For Reasons
Sure, They Are.
And Sometimes We Cannot Explain Why Chapters End
When In We Had Such A Strong Introduction
But Life Will Go On
And My Heart Still Beats
For I Can Not Call True Termination
But For Now, It Is At Rest
My Authenticity Was Never Questioned
I Always Remained True To Me
Able To Step Outside Of Boxes I Never Know My Legs Would Escape
Paraded Through Tempations, And Seeked Them
Because Of My Beautiful Curiosity & Youth
No Regrets
And Yes
I Find It Funny That We Cannot Even Call Things What They Are
Or What They Are
...In A Sense I Already Have
Im Content With True Pure Companionship
Feelings Never Lied
Yet I Never Asked For More
I Was Always Honest
How Can I Feel Bad About That?
Moments Shared Were Cherished
Love Is Still In My Heart
Amazed At Your Boldness
Expected Your Forgetfulness
My Wings Still Stretch
I Still Take Flight