.....

oh how i've grown
from past posts about new ventures that I thought were fulfilling
Vulnerability ... must take responsibilty.
Ha, kind of funny of me to say that I shouldn't be held liable
I was simply curious
Confused
Misguided
..Learning
In retrospect, a few weeks later.
After running into my past ...
I see ...
That I am not ready.. hardly ready .. to even compare one to the water
Yes, was indeed slightly refreshing
Yet not even pure

I'm sad to say
My hearts turned cold.
I never thought this would be me.

yehh

...should've investigated.

bird

times like this
i wish i was a bird
so i could fly far far away
far far away from here

almostbutnoteven

so not ready to fall
but ready to teter on the edge.
:)

almostbutnoteven

so not ready to fall
but ready to teter on the edge.
:)

likethewater.

this morning i woke up tired, but refreshed.
talked to my best friend & i realized that, life is so beautiful.
But the beauty can be forgotten when love lets us down.
Well .. I've been through it all before.
And how silly of me, to be blinded by a heartbreak.
It didn't take me long.
But I see through it all.
The skies opened up & I'm so eager to feel the showers of enlightenment.
I am feeling free.
Something new.

...He's just like the water. I ain't felt this way in years. <3

december8th

today, 12/08 4 years ago marks the day a chunk of past began.
we never saw it coming.
all of this.
ironically ... sadness doesnt penetrate my body.
i am content with it all.
i look back on it and smile.
...we were ...
and no longer are ...
love lost.

thoughtsinfiltratingmybrain.

I've been thinking about alot of things lately. My life. Closing a chapter and struggling to open up another. I guess sometimes in life we're forced into making dreaded alterations, but things happen. So now, I'm constantly pondering, going back and forth about where my heart is. Its not where it was. And I don't plan ever turning back. Its moving towards something, something thats been here all along. But I don't know how to call it. Will things remain the way that they are? ... Or will they progress into something unexpected yet anticipated. I'm here, in the midst of my own confusion because I'm not even sure how to label my emotions. I'm ready ... yet hesitant. And somedays, I find myself down & out about the wounds I have from the past, and yes its true, they are still healing. Faster and faster each day. Soon I'll have beautiful scars. But back to the present ... I guess I'll give "it" a pronoun. HE doesn't know it, I'd rather not show it. But he left my mind for a while, for I thought we werent us anymore. But now he's back. And constantly on my mental. And my heart .. its heavy. Because I have to keep it all inside, because if I express it, I'm afraid he'll stray. A friend he is to me. This magnectic connection is something I've never experienced before. I see the me in him, and he sees the him and me. ... I'm not asking for anything major, just a little assurance, maybe some recognition. But until then, I'll be living life. Letting it flow like a stream.

mypgjawn:)

...Seana' Dark completes my life a little.

JJ <3

His arms stretch long like his mane
He brings ...life to me
Life to thee
Strides amongst the most dignified
And unwines in his own tide of self-suffiency
He walks
With an expression that paints a lost picture
Yet he flies high in his own imagined sky
With a zap of a finger, he taps into another world thats full of wonders
Whimsical beats that would persuade ones body to sway and beat their feet
He embodies the streets of his city
He and she transmit their unique auras to anyone and thing in close proximity
The spirit of he roams free
Bright like street lights, perched on the top of a dream, he lets his soul be
Completely ...
Engulfed in his own lullaby
He stands
A polished rebel
With eyes as glassy as pebbles, he dwells
Behind an exterior akin to a tender shell
Closes his beautiful eyes
Drifts into a galactic trance
And there his soul begins to dance